Today is July 17th, 2009 and it is one day before my 18th birthday. For whatever reason, this birthday snuck up on me, which they normally don't. I even planned a party and everything...(So maybe 'planned' isn't the best word. More like: invited people and plan on having a hang-out session.)

On Tuesday (as in four days from now) I move out of my parents' house and into an apartment with Gary and Illyssa that is located in Ahwatukee Foothills (right across the street from the Barnes and Noble, oh noes!). And sometime during that week, I'll begin working at the Chandler Mall Starbucks, which isn't a drive-thru and is very slow. I have the feeling that I will be deep cleaning many many many things there. Like the windows and the bathrooms and the mop sink and the....

I've been trying to accurately describe to myself exactly how I feel about this whirlwind of events that I somehow managed to get sucked into. I think I'm about 20% excited and 80% scared...sometimes more or less. I'm scared about money, I'm scared about my grades and scholarship, I'm scared that I won't make friends, or that I'll make too many friends and I'll forget about everything else...but this is all normal, right? I'm allowed to feel this way.

I know that I am...intelligent sometimes and that I have barely enough street smarts to pass through this first stage of adult life only slightly singed. Hopefully anyway... I think my parents are having an even harder time. (I love you, Mom and Dad!) But regardless of how high my emotions are running, I do have a twinge of excitement that is propelling me forward. And damn it, I will be moving forward.

Maybe just not at a slow enough pace. Oh well. :)